Fuck it. Fuck fear. I just stopped writing a very eloquent blog post on changing how we view being uncomfortable in our lives, and realized right away that I wasn’t really being honest in this moment about where I’m at. Maybe you know something about FEAR too?
It was said to me once: Face Everything And Recover or Fuck Everything and Run.
I have opted to face everything over and over again. I don’t really consider myself that awesome for choosing to face everything. It’s not fun. It’s a choice and it doesn’t make me “good” or “bad”. Choosing to Fuck Everything And Run will not define you or me as “good” or “bad”. These are just choices. And every choice will lead us to another step.
What I can say is that when a spiritual guide asked me which I would like to choose when I was depressed and over 200 pounds, I knew I was sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. For a time I did face things and backed off and ran from facing things head on over and over again until I began to experience the benefits that facing life, seeing it, not denying issues was a powerful choice. A choice that in many ways expedited my movement through pain and discomfort.
I am currently in a situation in my life, at 46 years old, where I need my Mom’s help. I need her guidance and support. I feel embarrassed and ashamed about it. In fact, I have been thinking about it all day today. So my Mom and I have a meeting to discuss this situation in one week from today. Even though I feel shame, embarrassment, and I DO want to fuck everything run, I know in my heart of hearts that it’s time to remove the sunglasses, put my eye glasses on and see more clearly.
Takeaway: It’s ok to Face Everything And Recover and/or Fuck Everything and Run.
Either way, be honest with yourself the choice you’re making. If you choose to Face Everything and Recover, seek the help and guidance you need for support along your journey.
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